From being someone very impulsive and unrestrained, I have become someone who is very cautious and circumspect...so if you know me personally quite well, you would know that's a huge transformation. I am someone who does not refrain from expressing my emotions, excitement or opinions. Most of the times, it has not helped me. Its a cultivated habit, and I really have to try hard to control myself. But I DO IT.
S is going get a major leap in his career ( hopefully, my fingers are crossed!!)....and I am always the one more excited....whether its HIS birthday, HIS new job, HIS promotion, HIS awards and accolades or anything related to him. I am also the one who gets more worried about any problem he faces...I am always accused by my loved ones of worrying about EVERYONE and EVERYTHING...and I would always say, that's the way I am!! But who am I fooling? If it affects me, I should do something about it, even if it requires a lot of effort....at some point, you have to draw the line...
I would worry all day if a friend didnt act normal with me or would not talk to me...I think I still do...but consciously I am trying to ignore it. I try not to let it bother me. That way, I am blessed...in the sense, that I can be really happy with lots of people around or I can also be happy by myself...I know its wierd...but I really can....I need to apply my mind to it and attune myself to being optimistic...anything is possible. Of course, all of us have our happy sunny days and there are days when you feel low, not for any particular reason...
I am like a pendulum, I fluctuate between being happy and sad within few hours...I ALWAYS smile....but only a few close ones can really see beyond that...I get bored easily as well, am a very restless person, my attention-span is really low! All this is changing....definitely for the better!!!
I have finally understood how much it helps not to open your mouth where it is not required and do the one thing I do best....SMILE!!! :)
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